Birthday blogging

When I celebrate my birthday, I tend to be more reflective on the year that's past than at New Year time. Maybe because your birthday is something personal, not just a time when everyone else is looking back.

Here are some of the things that flew around in my brain on Sunday while I was turning 27!!!

* 3 years ago last Sunday, we returned from our big adventure to Europe. After almost 5 months away, I was so excited to come home. But I'll never forget the luxury of having him all to myself for so long, or only having yourselves to worry about. That trip changed a lot in my life for the better and I'll be forever grateful.

* I still can't believe I spent my 24th birthday on a plane from Heathrow to Melbourne. (Stopping in Singapore in between) Strangely enough, it wasn't my worst birthday.

* That prize would go to my 19th birthday, when my uncle died the day after. All day on my birthday I remember being so upset and worried and feeling a little bit guilty for hoping that he wouldn't pass away on my birthday. I couldn't handle the sad family gatherings on a day that had been so happy up until then.

* Thinking back that far reminds me that this time next year, I'll be invited to my 10 year high school reunion, and I have no idea if I'd want to go. I'm not really friends with anyone from high school and I think if I went I'd end up feeling like a complete goof and standing in the corner all night. It doesn't help that my ex recently got engaged to a girl I went to school with either.

* Or that my cousin's girlfriend of nearly 10 years would also be there, that would be a reminder of my cousin and the fact that we don't speak anymore. And I'm not even sure why that is. And I think about that every day and wonder if he's thinking badly of me for something I haven't done. But I can't see a way around it yet.

Did I mention thinking was a dangerous past time? Welcome to the weird world of my brain.